No Good Wthout It

Yesterday, my internet was down all day so I wasn’t able to post anything. But that wasn’t the biggest problem. Since the internet was down, my email was down also. All day I had this feeling of confinement. I could have left work and gone outside or actually done some non-modem related work, but no. I sat there feeling trapped like a zoo animal. I sat at my desk all day, pathetically re-trying and re-trying to start the internet. When I got to work today I was relieved to see that the problem had been fixed. I hate to say this but if it wasn’t fixed I probably would’ve wasted another day waiting for it to work instead of doing something else. Is this kind of thing my fault or societies? Since I don’t like taking responsibility I’ll assume its society’s. Yeah, that’s what it is.

Tomorrow I have an interview at Albertson’s. I applied only a couple days ago but I wasn’t too surprised by the quick response. Not because they’re desperate for employees or because I’m such a hot commodity, but because on the application I told them I would work all hours at any position. I know grocery workers make more money than I do but I’m still a little worried. I'm worried because about four or five months ago the Grocery Union went on strike for like three months or something. I don’t know how they compensate for picketing but I would almost rather be a "scab" and get paid than march around a store at $2 an hour. Before I decide what job I’ll take I want to check out a few more places including the local school district. With the district I’d get weekends off, twice the pay of my church job, 9-5 regularity, and hopefully I can get a better-than-average starting position because my grandma worked their for 30 years and was the most loved person in the building. The relation couldn’t hurt, right? Of course whatever job I get would always be my plan B, fallback job. My main aspirations are still being a recording engineer/producer or [knocking on wood] being a part of a successful band. Aside from that all I want to do is start a family and support it. I don’t care how I do it, just as long as I can pay the bills. And I know they’ll be plenty.

Movie: Gattaca

A Begger and A Chooser

So it’s official. I’m moving into an apartment with a couple other guys in late November. As part of my "don’t pay rent" plan, I’m still looking for a place to stay for the next month though. There are a couple of options including either my fiancé’s house or the guitar player of Band B’s house. Both would probably be rent free, but even if they’re not it should be cheaper than living at home. It’s starting to get exciting, all this moving out stuff but I’m still waiting to get totally ready and psyched until I find a place to stay for now. It seems like now that I’m trying to move out everything is getting so expensive. Gas is more expensive now than ever before. Housing costs (including apartment rents) are up. Car insurance costs way more than when any other generation paid for it and nowadays, in CA at least, it’s mandatory! Considering these things as well as a number of other increased costs, I’m looking for a new job.

I found out that what I do at work would normally pay about twice as much anywhere else, but because I work for a church it doesn’t. So I’ve started looking around for new jobs and second jobs but haven’t had any luck yet. If anyone knows someone or is someone who wants to hire a hard working, punctual, very professional office assistant let me know. Preferably, a Southern California job offering full time positions with benefits. What!? I’m not being picky, I’m getting married! I need this more than Ben Affleck needs a hit movie. Yes, that bad.

Another thing I really want is a video game that came out yesterday. Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas. I do kinda feel like a loser for still playing video games but I feel like even more of a loser because I don’t have this one yet and it’s probably gonna be one of the most popular games this year (aside from Halo 2, maybe). You know when you play a video game and you think to yourself that some parts of the game are cool but other parts suck? Well the GTA series has been making games for many years and each new addition consistently replaces the crappy aspects with awesome aspects. This latest game seems like it’s gonna be about perfect. And I can’t play it. Not yet at least.

I guess I’ll stop short of putting up my entire Christmas List, but sadly these are only a few of the MANY things I wish I had. I hope everyone can feel my pain. If you do please feel free to donate money to me and my cause. You can contribute by cash, check, or any major credit card. For only $200 a day can sponser a poor boy like Travis and keep him rolling in cash, the way he was meant to live. Just click here and ask for more details. It's that easy.

Movie: Minority Report

Not in Time for Anaheim

After all my jabbering about my love of doing live shows yesterday, guess what happened last night? Yeah, I missed the show. This was do to a number of factors. The first; I live 90 miles from Anaheim, the town where we were supposed to play at. On a traffic free day, that’s about and hour and half drive. On a traffic-ridden day, 2-3 hours drive. On a rainy night in a state where drivers don’t see much rain, an eternity. These nut jobs’ brains must be solar powered because as soon as the sun is covered up they disengage all common sense, and drive like 80 year old grannies. Everyone either drives 20 mph or 90mph. There is no medium. On my way down I witnessed 3 hydroplane accidents. Statistically, collisions were up 100% in the last 24 hours. So aside from trying to survive the I-5 Demolition Derby, I was already late because I didn’t get out of work until 5pm and the show started at 7:30pm. Once I was out of work I had to pick up my fiancé, stop by my house, get gas, get in a fight with my fiancé (a whole other story), drop her back off and go to the bank. As much as the freeway was a mess, the city streets are even worse so I wasn’t even on the road until 6pm. I drove all the way there and then the fun began. I finally got there at 8:30. Not bad considering. As I pulled into the parking lot I thought it was strange that none of my surely anxious band mates were outside waiting for me. When I got out of the car I heard the sound of a band playing and in my stupidity was relieved because I thought that meant some other band was playing. I walked up to the box office and explained my situation to the green haired man.
"Hey, I’m in one of the bands. I’m the singer but I’m kinda late."
"Your band just got done playing!"
I assumed he was doing one of those things were you trick someone at first and then when they believe you, you tell them your kidding.
"You’re kidding, right?"
"No, man. They just finished their last song of an instrumental set."
"Oh my gosh…"
"I’ll give you a wrist band if you want."

Thankfully my gracious band was not to pissed off. In trying to make up for it in anyway I could I helped them dismantle the equipment and pack up. I’m an idiot. Oh well. I hear it was a good show. And I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not.

Movie: Big Daddy

It's Raining Rock & Roll

The main event for tonight is that Band B has a show in Anaheim. I’m excited to see how many people show up that only know us from MySpace.com (or maybe because of this site). I’m still not sure how I’m gonna get down there since I have no gas or gas money, but something will happen I’m sure. I usually take three of the amps in my truck when we have shows but since amps are not waterproof, I will not be in charge of that this time. A huge storm is supposed to hit us sometime tonight. It’s kinda weird because although we live in the desert about half of our shows are on rainy nights. We even thought about changing our band’s name due to this incredible fact. I think Cats & Dogs would’ve been a good band name, maybe in the 80’s. Anyway, playing live shows is one of the coolest things I’ve ever done. Even practice is fun when you love the songs you’re playing. It’s so awesome performing songs that are 100% original. Just hearing the music all come together behind you and standing there, completely immersed in the moment. I suggest that everyone be in a band. There is nothing like it. If anyone reads this today and wants to go to the show tonight, let me know and I’ll give you the details.

Speaking of readers, I finally have some! Yes, it’s true. Thanks so much to all of you who have left me comments. I guess that all my begging and pandering really paid off. I know this site isn’t the most exciting blog around but I find it very interesting and relate-able. One of my new favorite blogs is Virtual Nations. It’s by this novelist who’s revealing a chapter per blog of this story he wrote a while ago. Check it out. I’ve said this in the past but now that people may read it I’ll say it again. If anyone knows of a cool site I should visit let me know. If it’s good I’ll mention it and then you’re really on your way aren’t you?

Movie: The Godfather

I was Used

Last night I saw The Used in Ventura. They played great. The opening bands were pretty bad though. I couldn’t even understand the singer of the first band when he said who they were a few times, but they sucked anyway. The second band, Head Automatica were a little better. They all dressed up for the night and played through their 80’s music as best as they could I guess. The third band, Atreyu were loud, but other than that they just sounded like what Story of the Year would sound like if they wrote bad songs. Finally at about 10:45pm The Used came on. They played a great set with an equal balance of new and old songs. My only complaint would be that their set wasn’t long enough (only about 30-45 min., 11 songs + 1 encore song). On the bright side, Bert has really found his voice’s comfort level. He rarely sounded too strained and always went for the high notes. When I finally got home and ate some pizza I only slept for about an hour, but it was well worth it. I strongly suggest you see a date of this tour because The Used is awesome live.


Sorry about the small update today, but I’m tired and I have to get back to work. Check out some of the band’s sites. Maybe you’ll like the opening bands and there’s nothing at all wrong with that. It just means you have lousy taste in music. How about a comment telling me what music you do like.

Movie: Snatch

Ticket to Nowhere

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I think no one even reads this stuff. I have even requested readers’ responses to certain topics but not a word. The last time I said this I got three responses so I thought I maybe had a small audience, but never since. I want to try and get anyone to say anything in the response section, anything at all. Just prove that you’re out there. This may seem like a desperate attempt, and that’s because it is. If you have a blog/website of your own, tell me where it is. If there is a particular web site you like, tell me about it. If there is a certain movie that you love/hate/think I should see, tell me what it is. If you think I suck balls, tell me. Don’t be confused, however. These are only a few of the infinite reasons you could comment on this update. The only thing I’m asking is that you comment. Please!

Anyway, the verdict is in. Total cost to live at home: $300 a month!!!!!! Oh well. What can you do? I’m trying not to care because it won’t change a thing. I’m just glad that I make an extra $300 a month now by babysitting those kids. This just means I won’t be able to save as much as I had hoped. It’s retarded because my parents are so incapable of handling my getting married that they are trying to dump all this "maturity" on me that they think I don’t understand. "How can I ever support a family when I’m so terrible at being responsible?" I guess this is what happens when you out stay your welcome at home. I always knew this would happen, I just was hoping they would wait a couple more months. When they told me they didn’t even know how to do it like normal people so the tone was, "Your in trouble," and (as all my family talks go) was followed by a life lesson. Thanks guys. I’ll remember this lesson all my life, especially when it’s my turn to take care of you. Bastards.

Before I start crying I guess I’ll tell you about something else. Yesterday I had traffic school. This day of school was all started long ago in May when I got my very first ticket. Band B had just finished playing a show down in L.A.. The show went pretty well and we were all packed up and ready to head home. As I pulled out of the parking lot of the club I "Failed to Yield" to an oncoming car. Fortunately both of our vehicles were not moving very fast so as soon as I realized what I had done I quickly reversed out of the other car’s way. No harm, no foul, right? Nope. Because the car directly behind the first one carried a couple of L.A.’s finest Peace Officers. They immediately pulled me over and began the long and drawn out process of ticket writing. The good cop/bad cop team surrounded my car and Mr. Hard Ass gave me the low down.
"License and registration and proof of insurance?"
"I only have my license because I just bought this car. I have this temporary registration until my real one comes from the DMV."
Apparently his dumb ass had never seen this kind of thing before.
"I don’t know what this is. You’ll have to take that up with the judge. What about your insurance?"
"I have insurance but I don’t have the insurance card. They haven’t mailed it to me yet."
"What do you mean?" he said with an empty expression on his face, "They give it to you when you get insurance."
This went on for a minute or two until he just gave up trying to understand this complex idea and handed me a ticket for failure to yield, driving without current registration, and driving without insurance. When the ticket came in the mail it added up to over $1000 worth of criminality. Five months later I am finally free of this headache and traffic school was the easiest part. Yes, this is my life.

Movie: Identity

Indecision 2004

Well, it’s been another busy week at work, hence the lack of updates. There have been, however, a few interesting developments in my life recently. Yesterday I started helping this lady with her kids in the mornings. Monday through Friday I get to their house around 6:15am, wake them up, feed them breakfast, make their lunches and take them to school. I’m done by 8:00am and get paid $75 a week. Not to bad, especially since the kids are real cool. The money may come in handy when I have to start paying for rent to live at home. I still can’t believe my parents are gonna do that but whatever. I should be moving out soon anyway.

Something else that gets annoying is the constant barrage of commercials on TV reminding me to vote. They don’t care whom I vote for, as long as I vote. Every 15 seconds some celebrity with a catchy election phrase is telling me not to let my rights go to waste. They say I shouldn’t let someone else make decisions for me. Like my voting for Kerry is gonna change a single thing in the world. Wether Kerry wins or Bush wins, I can guarantee you that nothing will change. We will still be in an economic slump, gas prices will continue to rise, soldiers will continue to die, and my life will still be the same. The only one who can change my life, regardless of what person is president, is myself. If I want to be rich and succesful, that’s up to me. If I wanna shoot heroin and be a bum, that’s my choice too. No president is gonna save me.

If I ever get rich and famous enough, and have a "podium" to tell people about the election I would tell them the truth. This country is the best you’re gonna find anywhere in the world. That is a fact. But if you don’t like how much prescription drugs cost there’s only one thing to do, make more money. Do you really think that voting "makes your voice heard" or "let’s you speak your mind"? Of course not. It just gets some guy in the white house who already has his own agenda and no matter what he told you on the campaign trail about health care reform, he’s gonna do what he wants cause he’s in charge now, not you.

Sorry about the cynical rant but it just pisses me off. The point; Don’t vote. Exercise your right to not be heard, because the truth is no one’s listening. You know who does care? I do, really. So tell me about it.

Movie: Phenomenon

When Rights are Wrong

In the office today the topic of stem cell research came up. It’s gonna be on the ballot in November so it’s important to know were you stand. The problem I have is that most people connect SCR with fetal SCR. The deal is that if someone gets an abortion then we can use the dead fetus for good by cloning stem cells, which could potentially cure some diseases. I think this would greatly increase the acceptability of abortions. Abortion is wrong. Yes it’s still a fetus, but that doesn’t mean it’s not alive. "A woman’s choice" is a lame excuse for erasing a mistake from your past at the expense of a child’s life. If a woman is raped and gets pregnant then I still think that abortion is the wrong answer. I think it makes a bad situation worse. You don’t want the kid, fine. That’s perfectly understandable. Don’t keep the kid, but don’t kill it! I think adoption is the answer to a lot of abortion issues. The ONLY time I think it is at all acceptable is when the mother will die due to the pregnancy/delivery. At that point it is a choice, one life or another. This world is a messed up place and there are bad things that happen with or without our doing but I don’t think that just because life gets the better of us we should take the easy road. What do you think?

It’s some serious stuff so now it’s time to talk about the complete opposite. Movies. Is it just me or is there absolutely nothing good in theaters this week. It’s all stuff I’ve already seen or stuff I don’t want to see. I know I talk about movies a lot here but I really enjoy a good movie just like everyone else. They can be so good that they make you see and/or think things differently than before. Sometimes they just hit a spot in you and become a part of your life. Whatever it is a movie does for you it’s all about entertainment and that is the main problem I have with the movies out now. They don’t seem at all entertaining. One thing that gives me hope is to look into coming attractions. Sometimes they are so undeveloped that no one even knows much about the story or its cast but it’s still fun to read about them. It’s a sign that someone out there is still coming up with good ideas. At least some better ideas then Alien Vs. Predator or First Daughter.

The genre I’m really getting into is the guerilla style, low budget, documentary. Ferenhiet 9/11 and Super Size Me are the two that I’ve seen and I think it’s great. Moore has a new one coming out called Sicko. and it’s about the health care industry. This guy is out to get everyone so watch out! I’d love a comment or 10.

Movie: Groundhog Day

Once Upon a Cell Phone Nightmare

Wanna hear something kinda funny? It’s actually not funny at all but maybe you can learn a lesson or two. Yeah.
I had a cell phone from Cingular™ for about a year and everything was great. I talked to everyone all the time and text messaged people once and a while even. I was a walking commercial for cell phones. That of course changed when I got a bill for $368. Yep, one month of service. Normally my bill was like, $50 something. So naturally I remained calm and called my friendly Cingular™ Customer Service Representative. Surely they would fix this grievous mistake on their part. Come to find out it was no mistake. And do you know how it happened? Those "blessed" rollover minutes. Minutes that were intended to save people from $368 bills. For the first six months of my plan I stayed well under my allotted minutes, therefore accruing thousands of rollover minutes. But one sinister month I began going over on my minutes as well as every month after. Since I had rollover minutes I had no idea and my bill stayed at about $50. Now technically it is my fault because I should have looked at my bill and seen my minutes but I was duped. Yes duped. I, for some reason thought that my contract was for 1000 anytime minutes. I noticed that I used about 800 or so a month. But actually I had only 600 anytime minutes, SIX HUNDED!!!! So eventually I used up all my rollover minutes and I get a giant bill. What’s worse is that I couldn’t pay it and they would not let me pay installments. So the bill sat there getting larger by the day due to late fees and continued service charges (although my phone mysteriously called the automated bill pay number every time I tried to use it). Grand total; $837.71. At that point they terminated my contract, cut my service completely, and sent out the hounds, affectionately known as Debt Collectors. By then I figured my credit was trashed just in time to get married and that I would forever have this monstrous, looming amount of money hunting me. BUT…the moment I had given up all hope of carrying on a normal, consumer driven life, a light at the end of the tunnel, a silver lining around my giant debt. The debt collection company lets me pay in three monthly installments. I can do that! If I make all three payments the collectors won’t put this little incident on my credit. So now, thanks to Debt Collectors Inc., I’m living the dream…paycheck to paycheck.
MORAL – Read your bills carefully or get legally ripped off.

THE END

Sucks huh? Oh well. At least it didn’t happen to you. I’m sure you, dear reader are much to street smart to let that happen to you. Now, for today’s Rad Ass website (no it’s not a typo, just embrace it). Web Radio. I’m sure this is so 90’s for some people but I just got into it. In case you’re like me and have no idea, it’s a website that lets you listen to real radio stations from around the world on your computer. So if you’re like me and live in a desert with not much radio variety, this is pretty cool. This site may not be the best one for this type of thing but it works fine and it’s free and that fits my requirements for almost everything. Hope you like it. And remember to let me know of your favorite websites you slackers. I love you all, really.

Movie: Fight Club

The Pursuit of Happiness

The next set of marriage road-blocks are coming from non other than my mom. This is really not a big surprise considering every time I get a girlfriend she turns into a nut. But the problem now is that it is actually (a/e)ffecting my relationship with my fiancé. I have to do something about it and it’s probably gonna be a big ol’ deal because the main point is my mom needs to lay off. Another problem is that my parents want to make me pay "rent" if I’m going to continue living at home. Although this seems like an OK thing it isn’t because I would still have to abide by the house rules like curfews and chores. Sucks right? But the good thing is that my fiancé’s brother’s roommate is moving out by the end of the year which would mean I could get a room/place of my own for about $300/month if I want.

On a completely different note, today marks two wonderful things; payday and the release of The Used’s new album, In Love And Death (they go hand in hand). I’m listening to it right now and it is amazing. I love these guys. I love every song I’ve ever heard from them. I think it’s possible that they have 100% good songs. I can’t wait to see them Oct. 13. Unfortunately, now that their CD has come out there are no more I’m looking forward to. I hate when that happens. A lot of the bands I like are not around anymore or don’t even sound the way they did before…ahem. It’s kinda sad.

I guess it’s about time for some new website referrals, but this time I want to do something different. I am gonna list some but I want YOU to list some of your favorites and then in an upcoming post I’ll list them. Just hit the comment button and let ‘em rip. My choice for today is Quizilla. This is a site were you can take or create any quiz you can think of, literally. If you are bored go here and you will easily waste an hour of your life, and isn’t that what the internet is all about? Now start commenting with your picks.

Movie: Memento

Life, Love, Losers and Winners

What's the matter with me? No post in a whole week! I can’t believe it. Well, at least I should have some interesting stuff to tell. Like how my brother has started singing for another band. Yes it’s true, the drummer of Band A, my brother who gave me crap for being in two bands, is now in two bands. It’s cool though because it doesn’t bother me. He played me a tape of the band he’s in. The recording was rough but it wasn’t bad at all. I can’t wait to hear it with vocals. I get nervous for my brother but he’ll do fine.

I’m sure some of you heard about Britney Spears got married again. It’s weird that most people’s problem with me getting married is my lack of financial stability, but someone like Birtney Spears, who has truck loads of money, has just as much, if not more of a chance of getting a divorce than I do. Famous people never stay together. So what is it, you have to have some money but not a lot? I don’t know. I figure if you get married, no matter what tier of success your on, it’s gonna be hard but it’s also gonna be worth it too. Write that down.

To my amazement, people have actually visited my blog. In a previous blog I said that most likely no one was reading it but to my surprise I got some comments stating the opposite. Although it was only three people it was still nice to hear from fellow web roamers (which they MUST be if they found this place). Thanks for the responses and keep them coming. I’d love to read someone else’s blog if you tell me where it’s at.

Movie: Made

Analyze Me

This blog has been around for a couple weeks and I think it's entirely possible that no one except for myself has ever seen it. I guess I’m really just doing this for myself, as a form of unconscious therapy. Spilling my guts to the phantom audience. After seeing Hollywood therapists such as Tony Soprano’s Dr Melfi, it seems like therapy is really just the art of inference. "This could be happening because of this part of your life, caused by this, caused by that," etc. Nothing is essentially your fault because the things you do are byproducts of things done to you. I guess that’s kind of true on some emotional levels but it seems more like a cop out. I think people can change, but only if they want to.

I was originally gonna do a fake blog, like some fictitious diary or whatever, but instead I just did this. Maybe some other time I’ll start up a weird, fake one and link it here. I love writing stories so it would probably be similar to that. For all anyone else knows this blog could be a fake one. I don’t know why anyone would invent something so ordinary but maybe I’m just that tricky!!

I guess this blog could turn into something pretty interesting if one of my bands got signed and became as big as David Hasselhoff or something. Whatever happens I’ll try and keep this place up to date throughout all my fame and fortune. Or I’ll just have my personal assistant do it for me.

On another note, I thought of another interesting web site. It's some European radio station’s site called The Atheist Network. Now, I'm no atheist but it's still fun to get on the message boards and rile up the natives. Don’t worry about hurting feelings on here because these guys are already pissed off just at the fact that there are people in the world that believe in God. If you have a good argument they will eventually give up and start calling you gay, which means you won, because they will never change their minds. But then again that’s what makes it so much fun! So go at it.

Movie: Dogma

Site Seeing

Sometimes the internet can feel like an empty, vast desert of stupid crap, but every once and a while you find a really cool website. These are a few that I have found and enjoyed.

One of the coolest is a site called Metaphilm. This site interprets a ton of recent movies and a few old ones. They search far and wide for anyone willing to write an essay that looks a little deeper at modern cinema. One of my favorites is a great take on Fight Club and Calvin & Hobbes. Awesome.

A couple of other cool movie sites are Movies.com and IMDB.
Movies.com is nice because along with movie news, it is fairly up to date on movie buzz as well. The search feature let's you search names of movies or film makers/actors/crew resulting in a complete list of relevant matches. Selecting a movie that is yet to be released will give you all the info available including a "blogish" style buzz update which lets you know how the movie is coming along. They also have a weekly Buzz Bin that lists the top 20 most intriguing upcoming movie news.
IMDB has even more up to date info on upcoming movies but not much in the "how's the movie coming along" section. One nice thing about IMDB is that people-searches result in tons of info, from what movies they've done or will do, to mini-bios and quotes.

The last site for the day is Free Translation. Just try it.

I'll think of some more later.

Movie: Sleepers

Back to Bass-ics

Let me start off by making things a little clearer. I'm gonna refer to the band that I ditched last week as Band A, and the other band as Band B. This will make things easier to explain and understand.

About 8 months ago, in Band A, our original bass player quit and we spent a few months finding a new one. We did and he played real well but his style was a little bit different than ours. Last week he informed us that he would be moving after Christmas and that he was selling all his equipment to do so. Luckily relations with the former bass player were better again and he was quick to volunteer for the newly open position. We discussed it and decided it was a safe move. Today is our first practice with him back in the band.

I’m actually excited about this because he started playing bass when we started a band, which means his style is exactly our band’s style. The same goes for the drummer and other guitar player. I hope that maybe this will put some motivation back in our band and we can take this thing all the way…maybe.

Movie: Training Day

Battle of the Bands

So last night I had to work a little later than normal and because of that, I didn't feel up to driving all the way out to practice then all the way home again. I called the guys after work and told them the deal and they were, to say the least, pissed. They had already driven to practice and set up, but now I wasn't even coming. I apologized and suggested that they practice with just the three of them. Then it turned into; "Maybe you should quit the other band cause it's taking to much of your time, blah blah blah."

This (the band I ditched on) is the band that I'm least interested in because the other has the better chance of turning into something. I still like playing with them just not as much. They always try to pull guilt trips and stuff, while the other band is always pretty laid back. I just got a message from the guitar player in the lesser band to call him back. Who knows what it's about but I'm, really not looking forward to that call, but oh well.

When I started in these bands it was purely for fun but now that I'm getting married I need to re-evaluate my time because bands take up a lot of it. My fiancé has never complained about my being in a band but I don't like not being around her if it's not for a good reason. A band that is really trying to "get big" and realistically has the potential to is not a waste of time, but a band that probably won't make it can be a waste of time.

I’m not sure if I should quit one band for the other (which would have to happen eventually) or stick it out. I’ll keep you posted cause I’m sure you’re dying to know.

Movie: The Sopranos: Season 4, Volume 3

Money, it's a gas...

I have a job that pays well for someone living at home with Mom and Dad but recently I have been battling poverty. That’s not to say that I am penniless but it’s close. Since when did my job seem like it doesn’t pay enough? Maybe since my lifestyle began exceeding my means. I feel like I have so many bills that I didn’t have before. I know I’ve expressed this before, but money sucks. It sucks because every aspect of life centers on money and success.

I think I’m gonna find a way to make more money. I’m not sure if it will be a scheme or more of a plan but I just thought of this so give me some time and I’ll get it.

On a financial plus side, my fiancé has (thanks to her grandpa) two plots of land up in the hills, so when were ready we can build a fairly decent house. It turns out that Southern California is about the most expensive place to live in the country, but with some collateral like land we can get a loan. At least CA’s worth it. It really is the best place to live. Where else can you go surfing and snowboarding in the same day? It actually just started raining outside and it’s the middle of September. Weird.

I’m getting married in exactly 400 days. Now that’s cool.

Movie: 21 Grams

The War on Error

I am a Republican I guess, which means I will be voting for Mr. Bush in November. This does not mean that I agree with everything he does, but compared to the Kerry alternative the choice is obvious. So many Bush-Haters have so much wrong, Michael Moore driven information that they think Bush allowed the terrorist attacks to happen because he had defense based stock options. The problem with trusting a movie is that the main goal of his movie (as with every movie) is entertainment. Moore admittadly had an agenda with the film, not to enlighten the public but to get Bush out of office. He knew that people believe what they are told so much so that if his movie was made right it could go unquestioned by the masses.

To be fair, I loved his movie. It was well made and funny but it didn't change my mind about who should be president. Most people who have dissected the movie know that many of the movie's key points are refutable and that's OK because it's just a movie.

Recently (as of the start of this new war) there seems to be a resurgence of "hippy-dom." WAR IS WRONG!!!!! BUSH LOVES OIL!!!!! It's amazing to heare people saying things like, "This war is about oil!" What's wrong with oil? Our lives are "driven" by oil. This country could not make it an hour without oil. Maybe that is what we need to fix. Maybe we need to stop being so dependent on foreign commodities. But what are you gonna do? That's not something that will change no matter who's in office.

Movie: Three Kings

From My E-mail (Sweeeet!!!!!)

I just found out that I can make posts through my e-mail. This is awesome.
What next, flying cars!?

Music Musings

I know I said I would post the next day but I never got the chance. It's funny how hard it can be to sit down and write for a while.

I've realized that I am probably semi-obsessed with music. I don't know if this is a bad thing or not but whatever. I love writing music. I love listening to music. I love looking for new music. I love playing music. I love music. I want so bad for music to be my job. I wonder what the odds are for a band to get signed. Probably worse than one million to one, but I think I could do it. I recently had a band meeting with one of my bands and we talked about getting ready to take things more seriously. More practice and writing. Hopefully this means that we can start making a living out of this nonsense. Cool, huh? If anyone ever reads this (doubtful) and wants to hear some of our music, e-mail me at audrocker@msn.com and I'll get you some. I like it.

Movie: Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones

Day One

This is the official blog of me. Welcome to it. I hope that you find whatever you're looking for. I figure I'll update this semi-daily. We'll see how it goes. Enjoy.

I am a 20 year old office assistant. My life is good. "Why so good?" you ask. Because I'm exactly where I want to be in life. I'm engaged to an awsome girl. I'm in 2 very talented bands. I'm persuing a career as a recording engineer. I have an extensive DVD collection. My life is moving in the direction that I've always wanted; forward. In a couple years from now, if my life is still in the same place that would be less exciting, but right now it's perfect.

Most of my life (right now) revolves around getting married. With all the plans I have for the future the best thing I can think of happening would be for one of my bands to get a record deal. At present, I am by most standards poor. However, if all goes according to plan I'll be able to make do. But it would be nice if money wasn't an issue. When I think about how money is the reason everyone does almost everything it pisses me off. I figure that the best way to beat the money system is to have so much of it at all times that it never has true value. It sounds weird but that's just what I think.

I don't want this to turn into a place where I promote my bands though. This is just a place where I type whatever I want. More than likely no one will ever read this but myself and that's probably OK, but you never know.

Here's something I just thought of. After every post I'll put what movie I plan on watching that night. What a great idea.

MOVIE: The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King